中年ET

Life is very interesting… like Gump’s mom said in the movie:

Life is like a box of chololate, you never know what you are gonna get.

From my personal experience, we don’t get what we hope for most but getting the second or sometimes the worst scenarios we try to avoid so bad.

I kinda got used to it and accept the way it is.

But I guess there’s always ppl who just never give up.

After deciding not to reply any of LG’s email I gradually realized this is never gonna end like this if I keep avoiding confronting him. I think I try to be nice to him coz I feel sorry for him coz he doesn’t get what he really wants in his life…

(though I don’t think I am the one he really needs…)

This Monday I saw a new email in inbox saying he would like to stay at same hotel as last time and same restaurant I brought him to last time. Those words start to irritate me further more so I change my decision.

Since no one ever feels sorry for me not getting anything I really want, why the hell I should feel fucking sorry for him!? It only makes me troubled and upset.

So I wrote an email back in 2 minute… (Scroll down to the end)

Chih on gtalk said he probably likes challenges

And my reply was “oh too bad coz me too…”

我已經很習慣也說服自己習慣這件事

可總有人說什麼都不肯輕易放棄

上週原本決定不回LG信  以示沈默的抗議

卻漸漸體會到  如果我持續不肯和他正面衝突

這個爛桃子是不會願意自行移動消失的

我想  我一直覺得對他不起  因為他也沒得到他想要的

（可是我絕對不是他『需要』的）

就像對著哭鬧不停吵著要買玩具的小孩

總是會先溫柔的安撫  一直到大人也跟著抓狂為止

星期一我看著他寄來的信  說他想要住在跟上次一樣的飯店

跟上次一樣去吃欣葉101  看著看著  我心中的怒火無可遏止

既然沒有人為了我得不到我想要的感到抱歉

我又何必為了他煩悶不開心

所以我花了兩分鐘回信  如文末

學姐說  他可能只是喜歡挑戰

我回說  只可惜我也喜歡挑戰

“hello~ to be honest with you

if your purpose for this trip is to visit me

i am totally fine healthy happy and dont think the visit is necessary

i am very sorry to put it this way

i am sure you are absolutely not dumb 

but if u keep pretending not catching my point like this

then i need only to be as clear as possible with you

sorry again but like i said you are always welcome to taiwan

i will save FRI nite for you if you still want dinner with me

but i dont think i can do anything else for your beyond that

sorry~”